The dreaded exam has been taken. I do not know what to make of it. It went slightly better than I expected but I think not enough to actually pass.
My next deadline is Monday, but I am taking the afternoon off, and first of all I am watching an episode of Game of Thrones. (First season, I am veeeery slowly rewatching. Well, I’ve only done two episodes so far, episode three now :D)
I am sO TIRED
but the study trip was succesful in the sense that I now cannot wait to move there for my year abroad, but I honestly don’t know which uni to choose cause all options have something great going for them
I’m at le parents to do my laundry for free and now it’s bed timeeee
Since I finally have a fridge with freezer compartment, I can get frozen goods at last! So I am going to get PEAS and I am so damn excited about it. I really dislike the canned ones and the frozen ones come in big packages and there’s no fresh option for peas. PEAS PEAS PEAS!!!
Also I can get vegan ice cream now but I’d have to take the metro for that so I’ll do that next week or something, when I’m already in the city.
l’diajefj
so I recorded lectures and put them online for classmates who weren’t there
and now the day before the exam the wetransfer link has expired and they’re asking me to upload it again
it’s been online for weeeeeks
it’s going to take me hours to reupload
adsfghjkl;’
I need 400 more words minimum (including an introduction) but I am going to dare and sleep 5 hours and if I get up in time (I am terrible in actually getting up no matter what’s going on), I’ll have about 7 hours to write those, and to patch some things up, and to make the reference list, and format the whole thing and send it in.
Everything better go well or else everything will have been for nothing.
wooheyyy
being ~personal on tumblr makes you lose followers
The follower count used to be somewhere where you had to click to see it. I used to not know my follower count and thus I didn’t care about it. Plastering it right on the right of my dash makes me notice it every time and I hate it.
For clarity reasons though, rationally speaking I shouldn’t care about unfollowers because I don’t know you anyway, 98% percent of you never communicated with me anyway so I shouldn’t care. 1.5% are friends I already knew outside of Tumblr, and the remaining 0.5% I’ve maybe conversed through a few replies or asks with. That’s like 3 people. So yeah, unfollow me all you want :)
Me too, John Green. Me too.
On a more serious note…
Why do we all care so much about Tumblr?
Everyone makes jokes like these, not being able to quit tumblr, being addicted, etcetera. All a bit too *dramatic* maybe, but still.
Why don’t we all just go and close our accounts and do something productive with our lives if we really feel like that? Tumblr isn’t very productive for the majority of users. I think in lots of cases the output doesn’t justify the input.
Why don’t I close my account? I’m just reblogging stuff and occasionally someone reblogs that but other than that I don’t see a point. When I put something out there, it’s not like I get a response. If it’s to communicate, it would be a lot more effective to just hit someone up on skype. So I’m definitely not doing to *meet people* and be social and stuff. I am not putting creative content out there to share. I am just ingesting more and more information about topics that I find interesting but at some point, doesn’t it just become overstimulation? I think brains like to be stimulated and because there’s 10,000 people reblogging that same pic of Jennifer Lawrence you start to get this sense that you fit in somewhere, especially when you start to pass a couple hundred followers. But isn’t that kind of a lie?
(via huffledorkable)
“When you are content to be simply yourself and don’t compare or compete, everybody will respect you.”
– Lao-Tzu
I don’t really know who Lao-Tzu is, and I am sure I should read up on him, but right now I just want to talk about this quote.
Thing is, I don’t know how to do what he tells me to do in the quote. On one hand I believe that a person should constantly be developing themselves and learning and changing. A Dutch proverb says “Stilstaan is achteruitgang”, which roughly translates to “To stand still is to regress”.
The thing is, I am always trying to change aspects of myself because I don’t consider myself succesful where I am right now, but every change is a battle and I feel like some changes are impossible without me somehow becoming content with my current state in that area…and I can’t seem to do that. I think self acceptance is an important factor in good mental health but I don’t know how to get from A to B, and I also fear that might I reach contentness over myself, the incentive to reinvent and better myself will be gone.
I don’t know how much sense this makes :/
The uni building is nearly EMPTY cause all the night classes just went home and I am still here, but luckily I just uploaded that report so now I get to go home.
Good because it’s fucking COLD here
(also the teacher whose class I skipped this afternoon just stood 15 meters from my table and it was fucking terrifying.)
I feel bad for not being smart enough for that riddle… but then, I don’t know what that anon wants from me so maybe I shouldn’t care.
Anyway. Bed timeee
Twenty minutes ago I was browsing H&M online and I was just about to impulse buy some awful clothes when the site went down for maintenance.
Thank you for not letting me purchase things :D
I just finished the Catcher in the Rye for the first time and I’m confused cause it’s just not the book I thought it would be… Nevertheless it’s a book worth exploring so I can now finally watch the Crash Course episodes about it and the sparknotes and stuff.
The thing about having English as a second language is that there’s mountains of books that people would have otherwise read as a teen yet to be explored. I am reading Pride and Prejudice next… which I suspect is going to be very different from Catcher… ;-)
haha so you know how I reblogged that Dutch newsbit earlier in which it said this weekend we’re gonna have feel-like temps of -15 degrees celsius aka the coldest weather ever for this time of year in our country?
my friend wants to go filming on that day, in nature places meaning we’d have to cycle through the horrible cold and wind to get a couple of shots of.. well, nature-y things
on top of that I have 4 weeks worth of homework to catch up on and an essay to write and a 3 page report for my internship plus that same night I have a slumber party with my friends for ~*nostalgic*~ reasons
I feel so bad about saying no I don’t want to go tomorrow but wow I just really really don’t
It is morning and I still don’t want to go to internship but I don’t have a choice
I am late though :/
